Red Rain
So last night as I was taking a shower something fun happened!  I was vigerously rubbing my face in the spray from the showerhead and then shook my head very fast from side to side to whip the water off my hair. When I opened my eyes, I saw a line of red drops at eye level all around the shower, the tile wall, the soap rack, the shower curtain…I got a bloody nose in the shower and then whipped blood out in all directions. There was blood all over, it looked really cool…I let the blood drip off my nose into the water on the shower floor…I love the way blood looks when it drops into water, it is kinda beautiful. I cleaned it all up anyway…that would just be gross if I didn’t

REI Visa
I am thinking about getting a credit card, I would obviously get the REI Visa, I mean heck 1% of every purchase gets me money to use at REI stores. I figure that If I use it for things such as Gas and Groceries, then I will pay off my full account balance whenever the bill comes, I will use it pretty much as a debit card, I won’t put anything on the card that I can’t backup with my own funds in my bank account, basically it is a way to build credit and get some cash for backpacking gear. I have never had a credit card before, I’m still not completely sure if I should have one though.

The Cat Is Out of the Bag!
We let Wahyu/ Little Jerry (As Raelson Calls him, Named after the rooster that Kramer owned on Seinfeld “Little Jerry Seinfeld”) have free roam of the house, his litterbox and food are no linger in our bedroom and he no longer keeps us up with his whining and scratching/pulling at the door. He still slept in our room last night and is as insane as ever…especially after the catnip…man that is like crack for cats or something. He gets all psycho and rolls around biting at things. (including his tail) I love the kid, even though he can be obnoxious. he has a doctors appointment this thursday, to make sure that he doesn’t have cat aids, cat leukemia, worms, or any other bad thing like that. but the sooner we get him fixed and de-clawed, the better.

Friday Night Fun
So here is a question that I have been toying with the past few days: Is it wrong to feel bad about not doing anything on a friday night even though you got asked to go out? But wait, you must know the backstory before you decide. I was asked by Jamie and Jenny to go to a barbecue that they were having at the house that they are watchign for someone…they invited our house and even though the other two guys (Raelson and Tom) couldn’t go, they still asked me to come. I declined for the reason that I didn’t really know many of Jenny’s friends very well and that my roomates weren’t going, not to mention that I don’t like large groups of people I don’t know closely. The second option that I had was to go to the Griffins hockey game with Raelson, Nikki and Tom. you see I wasn’t invited in the first place, making me available to go to the barbecue, but when one of their friends dropped out, they needed to find someone to take the ticket, they called me and I said no, I am not a big fan of hockey unless I know someone on the team. the third option revealed itself in a bit foggier manner. having no plans but to rent a movie and watch it alone, I called up Bill (A freshman who I became friends with at the BB Desk) to see what he was up to, he is a runner and told me that there was a new recruit visiting so they had to hang out with him, they were going to the improv show. I think I was kind of invited…but I wasn’t sure, I didn’t want to hang around with the close-knit running team and talk times and whatnot all night, so I turned him down on the “offer”. In the end, I did rent a movie (3 to be exact, but I got 2 for free) and I watched it alone. But here is my broblem…I got asked to that barbecue because I live in a house with other people…We were asked as a house, then I got asked to the Hockey game because they needed to find a person to take the ticket, I was only “invited” to the improv show because I called him first.(And I am still not even sure if I was invited!) No one genuinely wanted to spend time with me as an individual. No one said to themselves “this night just wouldn’t be complete without a little Josh Leo in the mix” and that is me predicament, sure I would rather hang out with just one good friend then that friend and a group of people, because otherwise you are just fighting for that person’s attention the whole night. I am not good at meeting new people…I don’t enjoy it…I like making new friends but it is so dang difficult. I think that an individual invitation to a party or get-together is a possibility of goodness in this whole game of friday-night goins-on, you still are individually wanted in that setting. So I chose to sit home alone and eat a pizza, snack on gummi-worms and drink orange Mountain Dew over hanging out with a bunch of people who could fall either way on whether or not they wanted to hang out with me. Is that so wrong? Do I have justification to feel bad? I would like some feedback on this issue…please help.